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 Five of three six five. 

Today I received my ACCA result which also the very first attempt. I sat for the exam on last December. To begin, I was not so much hopeful that I will pass, knowing I only prepared a week before the exam day and signed up for intensive revision class 5 days before the exam day. I also took a week off from work to focus on revision. Thank God I had many unused leaves to be utilized. 

Alhamdulillah that the hard work paid off. 

Juggling between work and study was not easy, especially I just started my career a year ago and things that I am doing now is totally new relative to my bachelor degree. While I still struggle to understand my work, I have another responsibility to study. On top of that, my ACCA studies are sponsored. So there goes much bigger obligation unless I want to pay back the whole amount later. 

I am personally so proud of myself. 

I had a big dream since kid. 

I have always wanted this and that. 

I know what I want, and the potential way on how to achieve. I had the charm and determination to make my dreams a reality. Most probably because I believe it so much and Allah helped me by easing my way to it. 

Life is so much different now. I can feel it. 

Things are falling into place just like how I imagined it to be 5 to 10 years ago. 

If Mama was still here, she can witness for me that whatever I have now is whatever that crossed my mind years ago. There weren't so much coincidence in my life. Just a fate and an answered prayer. 

Must be great when Mama is still around. Oh God, I miss her so much. So much that it hurts. 

So much that I tend to avoid remembering her so much. 

Mama, 

Thank you for always believing in me when I was still just a little girl. Thank you for introducing me to education, opening every door of opportunities so I could know what I want in life. Thank you for me letting me buy my first book so I could read, and though I know it was in fact expensive that time. 

Those memories when you send me off to school, making sure I have good clothes and proper shoes to school. For giving me money to buy my school supplies, books and paid me for extra tuition even though our financial was so tight that time. 

I know that you did that because you believed that I would succeed in life. I shall return all these to you. 

I probably would ask all your wants now, and buy you all the things you ever want to have. I would replace back all your jewelleries, buy you a branded handbag, nice shoes and pay for all your medicines, I would... 

I hope you still remember me. 

I have so much things to say to you. But I know you are in a good place now. 

I will always pray for you. 

Love, 

Adik.