Randomness

Kalau hidup sekadar hidup,

Babi di hutan juga hidup.

Kalau bekerja sekadar bekerja,

Kera di hutan juga bekerja. 

Kalau mahasiswa setakat belajar, 

Lembu di padang juga belajar.

Thus, we need more than just learning. We need to analyse, practice, interpret, evaluate and be complex. Life is like that, the more you're in wonder the more you're going to put yourself into questions. By having questions, you will need to find answer until then you know it's not the answer you were searching for in the first place. You just need to do some research, to be more complex and be out of your thinking limit. As a matter of fact, complex is not complicated. Complex more like you think in a way more sophisticated, more intelligent and more content. It's like you are asking something that will generate even more questions, until then it becomes a wide variety of wonders that are waiting for answer in each. 

Be suffer in questioning, be curious in knowing something you never know. That's how wisdom will come; through suffering. 

This is random, more random than my initial randomness. 

"Hidup bukan mudah dan kerana payahnyalah kehidupan itu, aku dan engkau akan menjadi lebih bermakna sebagai manusia" - Faisal Tehrani 

(Another random thing; this was given by the friend of mine who once ago we never just friends but a companion to each other. I'd like him to know I was so lucky to know him and even until now I'm so grateful to have him along the way I'm growing ever since my innocent youth phase. Thank you. )

Ravine

The way you detaching

Looking back to the old pages I've scattered I somehow have to admit there are few flaws in me are made by my own self; by my own hands. Either it's true or not, it should be the second thing to be considered. The main is; I might have let things to be in 'pending' the way I shouldn't in suppose. The idea was; attachment of Dunya is when I started to lose the heart to other human being. I started to believe and love someone so dear that I assume I have wronged the divine line between me and God; thus I decided to back off from anyone. It should be understood as I'm neglecting the true feeling inside me and denying all every possibility in order for me to detaching. And that's how I actually deny the blessing that Allah might has given to my dear self. 

For some people; loving someone is Dunya. You find it difficult to find your true one while your eyes are blind or been closed. Because after all; the way you see is nowhere to be on point. Love someone is never a wrong thing to do; it's a blessing after all. When you start to have the wrong idea about something, it results you might just reject the way Allah might has answered your prayers by sending you a right person. Because all you thought was; you have wronged what Allah said not to like 'love is haraam, coz it's something that can get you near to zina' by which it's all depends on how you act and protect yourself from not crossing the border line God has stated. To truly love someone as a means of fitrah and be crazily in love with any of His creation until you 'lost' are two different degrees of 'loving'; learn not to treat those as the same. 

As a way you act after rejecting the 'true' one, you can't go whining to Allah for giving you bad fate or simply telling that 'this is what's best for me from Allah'. Learn that, it's the consequences of your acts and wronged thoughts. How is it can you fix your relationship with God after hurting His creation? 

Allah. I was wrong all this while, thank God I know now which of which are wrong and requiring a fixing. At the end of the day, it depends on how you choose. Never simply rejecting a choice just because it doesn't suit your preferences. I will, in upcoming entries share about how this poet has turned me awake and eventually distinguish between standards and preferences. Know that; both are different and learn to never assume they are the same. 

May Allah bless us.