ini raya saya

Raya 2018 is nothing like any other previous years, I can make sure of why. Apart of having only just one kampung compared to two of decades ago, I guess having less is just more. Starting from how I made this year's Ramadan to be really important, so does my Raya. I wanted to feel and see more and just be with more people; those I call 'favourites'. Getting to have smaller circle of friends as I growing up older is no joke at all, that is a real truth that I must keep only what's and who's important. It's either some are not meant for me because they are under-valued to be in the spot, or it's me who are under-valued to be in their life spot. But I am blessed just to have what I have now, I feel almost complete at least to this point.

The story of how I lost my another kampung was a typical one, like others, I had my grandparents left us both in the same year, and that was also a sad memory that eventually we lost not just a kampung as a place to celebrate Raya but also relatives who would regularly visit the house, basically we lost a home both as a physical house and the feeling as well. That is tragic, I am telling you. 

But we moved on. 

We believe bonding must be kept as what it has been, it just sacred. Even so, right after we back from both kampung, relatives did come to our house in Klang. Even those from afar. That's true then air dicincang takkan pernah putus. 

Here are some photos during Raya at Ma's side @ Banting, Selangor. 

1st day of Raya begins...

Women of the house

Cousins

Grandparents with their grandchildren

 Moreover, I also took chance to meet Sara Fara and Sari on 4th day of Raya, since all of them were yet to balik kampung. Thus we met up. 

Here are some photos with them @ The Depot by JWC 


Baraan is which a group of people going for a visit to beraya (like attending open houses, or merely a visit to bonding) so we did this year, with a bunch of friends exactly on 6th and 10th day of Raya. 

All are friends from high school, such a memory we mesmerise while beraya. 

on 6th day of Raya with desk-mates while in high school

Pardon Boboj, focus on others haha

This proves that the sun was too hot I got natural highlighter

Now this was on 10th day of Raya, still baraan we are. But somehow this one was a little bit different because,
#IniBaraanAdnin and #bukandeekaycrew. Legit hashtags..



Adnin was another class, basically it's Sara's legit class and gang (just to be sure) and I was coming to pick up and meet her to attend Hi-Carl's open house in Shah Alam. But you know I got my best friend such a smart ass, she used me (read: forced me) to as well join her baraan that of course wasn't where I belong to. What to do, a kind-hearted friend such myself won't say no. Of course I'd be joining with first stated that

 'I might have curfews'
'Mak aku confirm suruh balik before 4' 
'Dah jangan paksa aku'

So from hi-carl's house, the adnians were then decided to move on to YB's house, which located somewhere along my way to balik rumah so why not kan. Okay then after that yada yada bang! we were already in the fourth house of the day so basically I was in the baraan of their class eventually! Yeah, expect the unexpected. Coincidence? Well, not so. 

Overall, I think I did miss my school times. 

I.. miss going back to school and, just laugh and laugh and laugh some more until well idk but that life was good. The bond was there, like you don't have to know some people well enough to joke around with no one getting butt hurt. All because we were on the same ground, we look something from one same side, even if we don't, we still cherish the difference. And there was nothing like judgment if someone being more or less, we celebrate the bonding. The best part, you speak sarcasm and they will laugh thinking that was some sort of a joke haha yes.
it was. 



so. this is my raya. 10 days of fun surprises. 










Till next time, all. 





dearest you two

To Nuts (our forever favourite 'kacang', duh)
 If there's one thing I want to say first and foremost, that is Thank You; for everything you've given me and just for everything I've taken from you.
How I wished I could give more than what I could, more than you think you must have deserved. 
Knowing you has made me in reflect, you taught how fine to be who I am and just proud to stand and be on my ground despite whatever people would say and whatever people would think of me. 
I learnt to pick up my self identity, while no others friendship has offered me this. 
So on the day you feel less powerful, remember that you have made someone to have found her true self and even live with it, that is just how powerful you have been.
On this day you growing up wiser, I hope for you to always be in cheers and be good.


To Ty (a girl who got her mind some years in advance)
You've turned twenty-two, just so you know shit has got real and we ain't young anymore so please please, be more serious! By serious, I mean you're obliged to spend sometimes easing your mind by colouring some mandalas I got you, be sure to develop the hobby! 
My wish for you on this special day of yours is nothing but the best in everything you do
I pray for all goodness in this world to reach you and may you be happy always.
Thank you for everything we have shared; the random conversations that just about everything under the sun, our endless silly jokes and ofc the challenge you have made me doing (i swear it just hilarious to think how far we've gone our way only to realise all these were just... well a mess but I must say now how much I enjoyed taking up the challenge)
(but it is fine though, as we have nothing to lose here, do we?)



Happy 22nd of birthday both of you, you guys have been an awesome duo to one another! Cheers!






great words from a great man

(Poem by Imam Al Shafi'i ra) 


دَع الأيــَّــامَ تــَــفــعــَــلُ مــَــا تــَــشــَـــاءْ
Let Days go forth and do as they please
و طــِــبْ نــَــفـــْــــســـاً إذا حــَــكــَـــمَ الــقــَـــضــَـــاء  
And be optimistic when destiny decrees 
و لا تــَــجــْـــزَعْ لــِــحـــَـــادِثــَـــةِ الـلــَّــيــَـــالــى  
And do not despair due to the events of nights past
فــَــمــَــا لــِــحــَـــوادِثِ الــدُّنــْـــيـــَــــا بــَـــقــَـــاء
For the events of this World were not meant to last
و كــُــنْ رَجــُـــلاً عــلــى الأهــْـــوالِ جــَــلــْــداً  
And be a man, strong in the face of calamities 
و شــيــمــَــتــُــكَ الــســَّـــمـَــاحــَــة و الــوفــَـــاء 
And let your nature be that of kindness and honesty
دَع الأيــَّــامَ
Let Days go forth
دَع الأيــَّــامَ تــَــفــعــَــلُ مــَــا تــَــشــَـــاءْ
Let Days go forth and do as they please
و إنْ كــَــثــُــرَتْ عــُــيــُـــوبــُــكَ فــى الــبــَــرَايــَـــا  
And if your faults become too much in front of the people
و ســَـــرَّكَ أنْ يــَــكــُـــونَ لــَــهــَـا غــِـــطـــَــاء
And you wish that they were to be concealed 
تــَـــســـَـــتــَّـــرْ بالــســَـــخــَــاءِ فــَــكــُــلُّ عــَــيــْــبٍ  
Then know that kindness covers all faults 
يــُــغــَــطــّــيــهِ كــَــمــَــا قــِــيــلَ الــســَّـــخــَـــاء
And how many faults are kept hidden by kindness! 
و لا تــُــرِى للأعــَــادى قــَــطّ ذُلاً  
And never show weakness to an enemy
فــَــإنَّ شــَــمــَـــاتــَـــةِ الأعــْـــداءِ بــَـــلاء
For dispersion of foes is a calamity 
دَع الأيــَّــامَ تــَــفــعــَــلُ مــَــا تــَــشــَـــاءْ
Let Days go forth and do as they please

و لا تــَــرْجُ الــســَّــمــَـــاحــَــةَ مــِــنْ بــَــخــيــلٍ  
And generosity cannot be hoped from the miserly 
فــَــمــَــا فــى الــنــَّـــارِ لـِـلــظــَــمــْـــآنِ مــَــاءْ  
For no water exists in the Fire for the thirsty 
فــَـــلا حــُـــزْنٌ يــَــدُومُ و لا ســُـــرورٌ 
No sadness lasts forever, nor any happiness 
و لا بــُــؤْسٌ عــَــلــَــيــْـــكَ و لا رَخــَـــاءْ  
and you shall not remain in poverty or any luxury 
إذا مــَــا كــُــنــْــتَ ذَا قــَــلـــبٍ قــَــنـــُـــوعٍ
If, in your heart, you possess contentment 
فــَــأنــْــتَ و مــَـــالــِــكِ الــدُّنـــْـــيـــَـــا ســـَـــوَاء  
Then you and those who possess the world are equal 
دَع الأيــَّــامَ تــَــفــعــَــلُ مــَــا تــَــشــَـــاءْ
Let Days go forth and do as they please


و رِزقــُــكَ لــَــيــْـــسَ يــُــنــْــقــِــصــُــهُ الــتــَّــأَنـــِّــى  
Your provision will not be lessened due to life's delays 
و لــَــيــْــسَ يــُــزيــدُ فــى الــرِّزقِ الــعــَــنــَـــاء
And it cannot be increased due to your haste 
و مــَـــنْ نــَــزَلــَـــتْ بــِــســَـــاحــَـــتــِـــهِ الــمــَــنــَــايــَـــا  
And for him upon whose horizon death descends 
فــَـــلا أرْضٌ تــَـــقــيــهِ و لا ســَـــمــَـــاء  
No earth can offer him protection, nor any sky 
و أرْضُ اللهِ و اســِـــعـــةٌ و لــَــكــِـــنْ  
Indeed, the earth of Allah is certainly vast 
إذا نــَـــزَلَ الــقــَــضــَـــا ، ضــَــاقَ الــفــَــضــَـــاء
But if decree descends, then decree is constricted 
دَع الأيــَّــامَ تــَــفــعــَــلُ مــَــا تــَــشــَـــاءْ
Let Days go forth and do as they please
و طــِــبْ نــَــفـــْــــســـاً إذا حــَــكــَـــمَ الــقــَـــضــَـــاء  
And be optimistic when destiny decrees

دَعْ الأيـــَّـــامَ تــَــغـــْـــدُرُ كــُــلَّ حــِــيــنٍ  
Let days be the ones that betray you at all times
فــَــمــَـــا يــُــغــْـــنــِـــى عــَــنْ الــمــَــوْتِ الــدَّوَاء
For no cure can avail a person of death 
دَعْ الأيـــَّـــامَ تــَــغـــْـــدُرُ كــُــلَّ حــِــيــنٍ  
Let days be the ones that betray you at all times
فــَــمــَـــا يــُــغــْـــنــِـــى عــَــنْ الــمــَــوْتِ الــدَّوَاء
For no cure can avail a person of death 
دَع الأيــَّــامَ تــَــفــعــَــلُ مــَــا تــَــشــَـــاءْ
Let Days go forth and do as they please
و طــِــبْ نــَــفـــْــــســـاً إذا حــَــكــَـــمَ الــقــَـــضــَـــاء  
And be optimistic when destiny decrees